In order for kindness to become a way of life, I need first to develop the habit of being kind and creating acts of kindness. To create a habit I have to practice regularly. I have today, tomorrow and the remainder of my lifetime to practice acts of kindness. I hope that kindness will, for me, become a way of life.
If I were to die, and the people I know and love wrote on my tombstone “she was kind” – I’d be happy with that.
In my world: KINDNESS MATTERS.
Ok, I screwed up. I take full responsibility. I made some unwise decisions. I went out with a group of girlfriends and let myself get drunk, and not just drunk – I got totally written off. “One step away from being legless” I was told. I’m supposed to be an adult, old enough to know better, etc, etc. I woke the next morning feeling embarrassed and ashamed. This explains yesterday’s poem ‘Legless’.
Hindsight is a wonderful teacher. I’ve felt my own emotional pain. I’ve acknowledged my error. So in order to move on from here, I need to forgive myself and then shut the door to that memory – not revisit it every five minutes or every half hour. I need to close the door and walk away and leave it there. That doesn’t mean I forget, but simply that choose not to revisit the memory and the associated negative feelings. To forgive myself and move on.
This morning I found this quote. It sums up how I want to feel. I’m not there yet but I’m working towards it. I’d like to be a friend, to comfort, care and maybe even inspire others – so this quote is for me. It’s fits me, right here where I stand today.
And I will move on. And I will close that door and walk away. And I will hope that my behaviour, how I deal with my imperfections can still be an inspiration to others.
Feeling humble, honest and imperfect.