A lesson in graciousness

It’s been an interesting week. We were finally allowed back into our workplace after the earthquake last week. The building had been assessed by two independent engineers as being structurally safe. However the motion of the earthquakes had resulted in several burst water pipes which flooded several floors and caused significant water damage on top of the earthquake chaos. Workmen and cleaners had been in to do an initial clean up and repair damaged ceiling tiles and lighting, computers and printers etc. The carpet had been dried and most of the lights and computer equipment were restored but this week involved working without air conditioning (not that much of a big deal – just a bit warm at times) and amid the smell of ‘wet dog’ which is actually damaged carpet that I expect will be replaced at some point. It was good to get back to work and try to find a sense of our new normality.

As many of you will know, I battle with low self esteem and work in a government department that in pockets is quite distinctly unfriendly. I pretty much keep to myself but being me, I also take whatever opportunities arise to engage with people because that’s who I am. At one point this week I walked past a senior manager and we made eye contact so I said hello on my way past. He ignored me (as he usually does). Had we not made eye contact I wouldn’t have spoken but as he looked directly at me I felt it was appropriate to be polite so I spoke. He ignored me! He heard and saw me but chose to look past me and not even acknowledge my existence! As I went about my work I thought some ungracious thoughts and remained a little miffed for the next hour of so.

Later that morning I was talking to my boss on the phone. She works at a different site and I seldom see her but we communicate via phone and text. She is the best boss – so lovely, encouraging and supportive – I know what you’re thinking at this point ‘just like a boss should be’ – and you’d be right!  I  told her about my encounter and responded with “That’s so rude! Why do people behave like that?” “You’re asking me?” I said. She responded “Yeah, well don’t take it personally. You never know what’s been going on behind the scenes for him – maybe he’s got his own concerns and is just on another planet today and wasn’t really aware of your presence.” “Maybe” I said and we changed the subject. I put it behind me and moved on.

Yesterday I read the quote below:

judge-my-story

At first I thought of myself and how I want to say this to the world.

And then I thought of him – the man that was rude to me. And it was a good reminder, like my boss had said, who knows what’s going on in someone else’s life. It’s time to be gracious and give him the benefit of the doubt. I might steer clear and give him a wider berth next week but he’s been through earthquakes and floods too. He may have things happening in his life I have no knowledge of, and while he is responsible for his choices and reactions, he deserves the same lack of judgement I wish for myself.

 

 

 

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9 thoughts on “A lesson in graciousness

  1. Wow, this is a very powerful post. First, I am sorry for what you have been going through during this time. Any earthquakes we have felt here have been minor shocks and aftershocks. We have lived through a few floods but only inside the residence.

    Your boss is very wise. And to find that meme is amazing! I know I have often wondered why people reacted to me as they did, always presuming it was about me. I will try to put this in practice as well.

    Thanks for the life lesson!

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  2. This is something I am always saying to my elderly mum who finds it hard to see another person’s point of view especially when it’s someone who has missed an appointment to do a job for her, or a neighbour who has let her down about something. I tell her you don’t know what’s happening in his/her life. You don’t know what kind of news they may have received today. She learned her lesson well recently when the retired plumber who normally sees to any heating problems didn’t turn up and she was complaining about him and ready to leave an angry message on his phone. It turned out he had a severe stroke and was no longer able to work.
    I am pleased to read you are back at work and hings are settling down a bit. I can’t imagine coping with all that upheaval and insecurity. Another great post. 😊

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  3. This is always a good reminder, and I thank you for it. I’m glad you’re retrieving some semblance of normality in your life. I guess earthquakes shake things up both physically and emotionally. I share that self-esteem issue. We’ll work on it together, shall we? ♡

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