The ME I carry inside is the result of years of life experience,
Of good days and bad, of decisions and the lack of,
Of events I didn’t choose, and plans I mapped out,
Of goals and dreams and hopes, some realised, some put aside,
some relegated to darkest corners of my memory;
Of people I have encountered along the way
Of joys and sorrows shared, connections made,
Of pain concealed and private reflection, veiled belief and unspoken debate,
Of contemplation, musings and silent brooding.
The ME I carry inside is the product of psychological carcinogens,
Of cerebral warfare, bayonets and subliminal Molotov cocktails
Of emotional barbed wire and incarceration
The target of soul destroying machine guns and flame throwers
Mere cannon fodder in someone else’s pitiful game.
A pawn, a pilgrim, journeyman, jester and vagrant.
A queen, a fool, artisan, washerwoman and dreamer.
The ME I carry inside is a little girl who is trying to sing
with a trembling voice. I see her courage, her tears and sense her pain
And all I feel is compassion and kindness
I want her to be safe, and to be cared for
To hear her story and tend her scars, for her to live without fear,
I wish for her a haven to run to, a place of healing and peace
A safe secret enclave where one can breathe and simply be
I wish her quiet forests and places of peace
The ME I carry inside is on a journey
Where the sun has burnt and the winters have been harsh
And if I don’t care for her – who will?
Just as I would love and care for another with her story
So I choose to care for the ME I carry inside
I will give her time: to be, to breathe, to feel the wind on her face
And I will nourish her soul and apply balm to her feet
And give her the time to speak of all she’s known
And I will say “Rest here, beloved child”
I am unique, a precious stone, beautiful and with hidden depths.
I am creating a habit of self care and self compassion
This is not the end of my story.
[Originally posted on this blog in February 2016]
Oh wow. This is so beautifully written. Such a poetic, open, reflective piece – yet so easy to relate to as well. I just love it.
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Thank you – I really appreciate that 🙂
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You’re most welcome. Thank you for sharing it.
I hope you’ll allow me to reblog it?
-Kim
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Absolutely – be happy to 🙂
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Thank you so much 🙂
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Reblogged this on Ramblings of K and commented:
I just had to share this poetic piece from one of my favourite blogs … there’s so much beauty in its simplicity and honesty. Enjoy!
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That’s the way to make me stand up on a wet Saturday morning. Full of tone and flow with that line… wow! “And I will nourish her soul and apply balm to her feet” beautiful thanks for sharing. 😇
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Thank you 🙂
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Definitely not the end of your story, but a story so beautifully told. What an eloquent piece, I felt every word. Thank you for baring your soul.
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Thank you for your kind comments – always appreciated 🙂
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This is the most beautiful thing I have read today. The love for the ‘me I carry inside’ is felt throughout the whole piece. Lots of personal lessons learnt from this piece. Thank you.
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Thank you – I’m really grateful for your comments and your perspective 🙂
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So wonderful, beautiful and true. These words really resonated with how i feel. Thank you.
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It’s always encouraging when someone else ‘gets’ what I’ve written. Thanks for your encouragement & for commenting
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Amazing post, so poignant. Self care is vital. The warfare imagery is so accurate.
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Thank you. I appreciate you taking the time to comment, and your kind words 🙂
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This is absolutely beautiful and touching.
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Thank you. I appreciate your kind words. 🙂
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Very powerful and beautiful.
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Thank you 🙂
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My pleasure.
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This is how I feel as well. Lovely, just perfectly said.
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Thank you. It’s always encouraging when someone else can relate to what I’ve written. Thanks for commenting
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This makes so much sense. And that’s saying something.
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Wow – high praise!!! Thanks Cate 🙂
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Reblogged this on Wild Currents and commented:
I only wish that I could be so articulate.
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Wow, thank you 🙂
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beautifully written. I have reblogged.
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Thank you 🙂
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simply beautiful
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Thank you 🙂
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I read the comments and echo them all! Beautiful, and thoughtful and an expression of truth from your heart.
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Thank you, your comments are very kind and most appreciated 🙂
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Beautiful! I don’t even know what else to say. Just beautiful!
Shannon
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Thanks Shannon. Always appreciate your comments and your kindness. Thanks again, Ruth
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I loved this!
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Thank you – appreciate you saying that
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most welcome!
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